Dealing with depression, mental illness, and the sadder aspects of life


#21

That is what the site did to my name when I first signed up here, put an underscore in for me, until I was able to have a Mod change me back to the old LouC moniker.


#22

Oh, it controls the Wii, or should I say “the wee that was fun”. :wink:


#23

it makes sense.

can i ask why your health is deteriorating (is it age related?)

I hope for the best for you and your wife.


#24

It absolutely does Lou.


#25

No problem. I am suffering from issues from when I was born, crippled feet, and poor lifestyle choices when I was younger, Type 2 diabetes, deterioration from degenerative arthritis in my bones, inherited, as well as lingering problems from a car accident, upper neck disc damage, a farming accident, lower back trauma, and various and sundry job related injuries, plus many off the job attempts to kill myself over the decades.

Age related. Life related. Born with it.

I am just a 61 year old man with a 113 year old body.

But by golly I still see the stars at night, the sunrise in the morning, the snow fall in winter and the first blooms of spring, and I thank God every day for the life he has given me with my wife and to be here for all those blessings.


#26

It’s the little things we take for granted when blessed with good health, mind and overall lives. I hope to find that before my waning years, I stop to smell the roses and wonder at God’s glory.


#27

Lou, I’m sorry, my friend, that things are not all sunshine and roses for you. But I admire your optimism and pray and hope for many happy times for you in the coming years.

Physical pain is so hard on the psyche. It just grinds you down. I wish you well in dealing with that.


#28

I hope your wife can get better with her heart issues. Has she been referred to any sort of gym for cardiac patients? At least at first, patients are monitored after exercises for signs like blood pressure.

My dad still goes in his 80s. He suffered from heart disease that wasn’t obesity related, he wasn’t overweight at all, but needed to get moving around as part of his treatment.


#29

Thanks for letting me. :slight_smile:


#30

Lou, brother, I’m sorry to hear what you’re going through. You have friends here, lean on us for whatever help we can provide.

Oh, and I’m going to try this to see if it works. I’ve read that if you type @LouC, it informs said user. And I think gives me a badge. :grin:


#31

Yep. I try to avoid it though, because I’ll be researching disorders and finding something small and then self-diagnose myself with that disorder (I suppose I have medical-student syndrome early??) but I’ll definitely take a look. Thanks for telling me about it :slight_smile:


#32

I’ve learned the hard way that Dr. Google can be a lot more harmful than it is helpful. I basically have someone else Google for me now.


#33

@LouC I’m sorry that things have been so rough for you. I’m glad that you have someone to truly share the burdens and joys of life. Many people don’t have that luck…
I hope for the best for you and your wife.


#34

I’m sorry to hear that you are suffering, Lou.


#35

Thanks. :hugs:

I do believe it is more painful to see my wife suffering all that she is enduring than it is for me suffering my own infirmities.

She is slightly better, but so far off from OK yet.


#36

Thanks! Your kind words and thoughts are greatly appreciated.

When I tell my wife how folks here, like you, and Nik, and FlameHeart and others extend well wishes for her it really does have a positive and beneficial effect for her emotionally. It is nice to know she is thought of. Especially with how some in her own family seem indifferent if even aware of what she is going through.


#38

@FlameHeart

I read that post before you deleted it. I’ve felt the same way you feel. I’m glad you’re still here, and I hope you stay that way. I know I can’t say much that will make you feel better, but I hope you know we’re here to help if we can.


#39

What a decision. Live with mind numbingly harsh, crippling; literally crippling pain. Suck it up. Scream inside for relief. Or go to the doctor, only to dance the pain pill polka. “If you want adequate pain relief you must go to the Pain Clinic”, just so that I might have some modicum of relief on days like today?

What a shame such a simple task, a pleasing task, setting up a raised bed garden plot, should leave me a crushed wreck at the end of the day.

Bummer.

I have never abused the pain pills I have been prescribed. I have never sought to be on them every day despite being in pain every single day of my life. No. I just want to have some for days like today when the pain goes from the 6 or 7 normal and peaks at 10 and won’t come down.

But no. We unfortunately have an “opioid crisis” so when I even bring up pain meds I get askance glances, the kind a person gets when they have been presumed guilty.

I know there is an abundance of caution coming from many doctors, as well as legislation already on the books trying to stem the opioid crisis tide, but cripes that causes us non abusers even more pain.

OK
SOAP BOX RANT IS OVER


#40

Oh, Lou, I feel so sad for you. I know how much you were looking forward to your new little garden project.

I wish there was a better way for relief of your pain, it seems like in this day and age we could have better pain control.

I suffer from a bit of low level chronic pain also, nothing as bad as yours, but it leads to anxiety and some days seems to fill up my brain. I don’t take medication for it, it’s not unbearable.

I wish you and your wife peace and softness in this time. Hugs to both of you.


#41

Thanks! Hugs going back to you and yours! :hugs: