Been feeling really under the weather physically and mentally. Not sure if it’s a sinus infection or a cold, or something else.
Sometimes I wonder if I have cellular brain damage from going through one trauma after another since 2021, alone, with dad basically turning on me and the gaslighting. I have an anxiety attacks and I have more difficulty with emotions and controlling my thoughts. I got two rounds of Cold Therapy which was designed by a clinically diagnosed narcissistic psychopath treated like a malignant covert narcissist at Skyland Trail and with the therapist that I saw my last semester of college. Not to mention being in an unsafe environment where I get pressured to get into stranger’s vans and there have been multiple break ins.
Now it feels like everything repeats, and because my last iob didn’t work out due to safety I’ve been having a lot of time to ruminate.
